I am now 20 years old.

I drink & take xanx everyday now but still hold down work n school I’m like dam BITCH u functioning

I don’t have my two soulmate best friends anymore, I have one currently in the works. But I’m broken.

sjworochimaru:

me, cutting myself open and pulling out my organs: god i have to do everything myself around here

I turn 20 on Thursday & im deleting this Tumblr. Good riddance but also appreciative of the endless void I have been able to throw my darkness into. It’s a new chapter.

Uuuuuuhmmmmmmm yeah that made me happy Idc if I’m drunk
That was tight 💘

I knowwwww deep inside that I’m not fat but having an eating disorder always has me feeling like I’m 200 pounds. I weighed 148 today which is my lowest EVER & I still feel so fucking fat. I wish these obsessive thoughts would take a break :(

I literally wanna slice every inch of my body & keep fucking people till I feel like I can breathe again this hole has turned into an abyss

I’m back into xanx & I wanna kill myself even more

Losing my best friend & soul mate to drugs, one of the shitiest feelings

Trying to be as mature as I can be & actually surprised with myself. Proud.

3goffik5u:

Scorpio is running out of steam.
Scorpio is running out of dreams
Scorpio is not sure how “Can’t stop won’t stop don’t ever stop doing something useful” turned into “I did a thing, time to slack off for hours”
Scorpio forgot why they’re Here.
Scorpio forgot why they’re supposed to be “enough”
Scorpio forgot what it was like to have a purpose already, but scorpio is going to be salty about it anyway.
Fuck the stars.

Scorpio doesn’t really want to fuck the stars, But if they don’t give Scorpio a destiny already, Scorpio will rally enough for a good “fuck you.